One Thought – A Devotional
Lent. Why Have You Forsaken Me, O God?
12 March 2017
When I was little and about 5 years old, I would have a recurring nightmare.
We used to live in a rented SIT (Singapore Investment Trust) flat in Princess Elizabeth Estate. It was located in the largely kampung Hillview neighbourhood of Upper Bukit Timah Road, at the foot of Bukit Gombak, now home to our Ministry of Defence.
About once a month, my mum would drag me along with her to do her marketing of special condiments and spices at Tekka market. That was about an hour’s Green Bus Company ride from where we lived.
My dream would start with me happily accompanying my mum to market and enjoying the passing vistas from the bus as it traversed the north-south Bukit Timah Road.
But my nightmare would always begin with me stepping off the bus alone at the wrong bus stop when nearing Tekka market. My mum would continue on her way in the bus, perfectly oblivious to the fact that I was now stranded.
I would shout and cry for mum to hear me and for the bus to stop. But nothing of the sort would happen. The bus would quickly become smaller and smaller as I chased after it, with me running, shouting and tripping on the road that ran alongside the then black smelly putrid canal.
Every time I had this nightmare I would wake up sweaty, utterly afraid, bereft of all trust, emptily desperate and yearning assurance.